All I wanted to do was heal you
Love you
Know what it’s like to feel for someone unconditionally
To break and go to repair myself
Then bounce back!
And love like nothing happened
I looked past the inconsideration and mismatch of words and actions
Left to make sense of what was truly meant to be meant when my heart was already bleeding
Game-playing to make me try to make sense of everything
I was a nurse to the both of us
Loving unconditionally is a full-time job
Hugging the phone in case affection was needed
Sending sweet-nothings that meant everything throughout the day
Considering two people in every decision
Feeling like my heartbeats were shared
Chosen attachment proven to be bittersweet
And turned bitter when the heart became cold from the pain
Nobody is a perfect lover
But,
Someone is a perfect lover for me
Breaking up to make up
Unsustainable affection
Tick tock tick
Those feelings will run out…
Now
Reawaken in the morning
Then die in the afternoon
And how grateful I am for it all:::
It taught me to draw every bit of strength I could when my spirit felt dead
How grateful I am for the opportunity to have loved like it was one of my life's purposes
How grateful I am I fell in love
How grateful I am for the gained understanding
How grateful I am to have experienced such a rapture of my existence
How grateful I am to have learned that everything was nobody's fault
How grateful I am to have learned to love myself (the greatest act)
How grateful I am to have gotten what I wanted
I have loved and lost but it was better to have… you know the saying
No,
I still gained.
Warrior lover for life.
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