The greatest rollercoaster (love)

All I wanted to do was heal you
Love you
Know what it’s like to feel for someone unconditionally
To break and go to repair myself
Then bounce back!
And love like nothing happened
I looked past the inconsideration and mismatch of words and actions
Left to make sense of what was truly meant to be meant when my heart was already bleeding
Game-playing to make me try to make sense of everything
I was a nurse to the both of us

Loving unconditionally is a full-time job
Hugging the phone in case affection was needed
Sending sweet-nothings that meant everything throughout the day
Considering two people in every decision
Feeling like my heartbeats were shared
Chosen attachment proven to be bittersweet
And turned bitter when the heart became cold from the pain
Nobody is a perfect lover
But,
Someone is a perfect lover for me

Breaking up to make up
Unsustainable affection
Tick tock tick
Those feelings will run out…
Now
Reawaken in the morning
Then die in the afternoon
And how grateful I am for it all:::

It taught me to draw every bit of strength I could when my spirit felt dead
How grateful I am for the opportunity to have loved like it was one of my life's purposes
How grateful I am I fell in love
How grateful I am for the gained understanding
How grateful I am to have experienced such a rapture of my existence
How grateful I am to have learned that everything was nobody's fault
How grateful I am to have learned to love myself (the greatest act)
How grateful I am to have gotten what I wanted
I have loved and lost but it was better to have… you know the saying
No,
I still gained.

Warrior lover for life.

"TEAM" 5/15/13

To say you love me
For me to wonder what that means...

"Love suffers long"
The pulse keeps beating
The clarity finds me
The rusty gates open and close and re-open again and again
We are a team,
Not individual identities trying to coexist
We must be a team
Break free of your insecurities, Jeskah
Untie the chains
True happiness is within
IT is internal only to you
Your heart grows in the dark
Inside, it is always spring
The vibrations continue
You are breathing
You are loving energy
Looking to partake in community
Looking to be in a team
The power of perception
Affects the choice of actions and behavior
Believe in the power of team perception
Not 'you' and 'me'
Just 'us'
Your pain is our pain
My happiness is our happiness
It is our life
I guess I didn't understand fully that you already see is that way
You've been rooting for our team
And I've been keeping track of our individual scores
I know you used to too but we worked through it together
Now, will you work through my insecurities with me?
Work to break down my walls like we did with yours?
Will you not give up on me?
What will you choose?
It's not easy right now but it may become easier
IT may just be better because we are better together
Will you invest in my happiness?
What great love is this?