dreams

Yes, my eyes have bags in them
That's the effect of a dreamer chasin em
And it's really true that they move to tears any time of the day
To finally experience justice
That's the dream that I chase
And some people tell me I'm genuine
Amazing
Inspirational
And it's all the product of a chaser
And I'm a chaser because of the way life has formed me
The way that my parents' situations have formed me
I feel like they were placed in a misplaced culture
And gave birth to three children
I was almost not born
Because the struggle of immigration of life in Brooklyn with no mastery over a new language, city, culture, and economy, as well as a new daughter under 1 year of age
Were odds against my being
Almost prevented me from birth
But here I am
And I thank my mother for the decision not to abort my chance
And I thank Gd for the miracle of a kick my mother felt
And sometimes I feel the struggle of my parents...
I always feel the struggle of my parents...
And I carry it in my backpack, that's what makes it heavy
And it is the extermination of their dreams that have formed mine
One day I will dream (and will) tell them:
"Mamma, papa, I am going to graduate school.
I am moving to New York.
I am going to study what I want.
And one day I will tell you both you don't have to work any more because I will support you.
I love you.
Thank you for everything you've ever given me.
I've learned not to even take for granted that I am alive.
And it's all from you.
Except for all the things I've worked for myself
And have kept secret from you these past four years of college.
Well, all the times you drove me to airport for a "conference."
All the times I couldn't visit you on the weekend,
or only had time to stay the night and leave in the morning,
well Mom and Pop,
it was for this.
It was all for you.
And so I realize that all the things I have worked for myself have actually been not by myself.
Because your struggle is my energy
Your tears I don't see but I feel and use them as tear-diesel to fuel my actions and pursuit
It's all for you,
Mom and Pop.
I love you."

a beautiful thought

The thought of in a future life being me again, and being happy with that!

wording

Organization versus control.

Gender studies

Womyn are to be shock absorbers?

That I am
But I do not hold myself to be "an appropriately sexed person"
If one is, they are required to RECOGNIZE a person
Before they can "allow one's heart to beat or one's blood to flow in erotic enjoyment of that person"
I say
Let the heart beat
And the blood flow
Live

...Culture is so pervasive
Normative conceptions of what is beautiful, "man", or "woman" dominate...
every...
part...
of...
life
Embodied in idealized prescriptions

If I believed in prescriptions, I'd visit a pharmacy
But I believe in that holistic healing
So Doctor, forget prescribing me